Monday, January 31, 2011

brought to my knees

i'm pretty sure everyone who reads this (both of you) knows that we have had some heavy stuff hanging around the Watts/Merryman house(s) as of late. it's been maddening, really. when i wasn't dealing with death or sickness or sadness or runaways or confusion, i was dealing with bankers and realtors and potential or soon-to-be-past employers.

this morning, i woke up with a heaviness in my heart. that i might never be the woman i was meant to be. that i don't love strong enough or make good enough decisions or even write enough thank you cards. that maybe i really am a horrible mother and shouldn't try that again. that i might never make it to peaceful.

and then this afternoon, i'm working. and i got a little distracted. and i read a post by a really great blogger who posted on a really great community site. and it makes a whole lotta sense to me and where i'm headed these days. click on over to (in)courage and read this post by angie.

let me know what you think about that...

Thursday, January 20, 2011

moving on...

we thought it appropriate to bring a little closure to the last chapter.

updates: we tried desperately to get Dennis to come back to Arkadelphia. we laid out legal, financial, educational and emotional reasons to him via letter and email. we tried to arrange a meeting. he would have none of it. jon tried "running into him" at his job. Dennis looked at turns sad, mad and indifferent.

he has since removed us as friends on Facebook and blocked us from any contact.

his pictures that we could see (before the block) did not even look like him. maybe those pictures were the real Dennis. if they were, he has been putting on one heck of a performance.

we are working through our feelings about the whole thing.

in the meantime, our Nashville house sold. yep!! so thrilled. we are here in it this weekend packing up all our stuff so that it can join us in our adorable new home in Arkadelphia. we close on Tuesday on the perfect home for us. just 2 miles from my mom. crazy. it feels good to settle into the town that grew both of us. we can totally see God's hand in the whole thing. and we are thankful to be part of His tapestry.

thank you to anyone who has had a part in our story...even if it is just reading this blog and maybe praying for us. we have no idea what the future holds for us. but we would be crazy to think that it will be boring.