about six months ago, a friend of ours asked if our blog was "true." if everything in our life was just as it sounded...perfect. and at the time, we thought, "gee, that's really funny." i mean, at the time, yes, we were in the midst of learning to be a family with a new 15-year-old child. but life was good...we laughed through trips to the grocery store and through learning to discipline. we had kooky things happen to us, but we muddled through.
this summer...we've learned to be a family that weathers storms. i should say, we're learning.
some of you know that last week, my dad got some pretty bad news. seems he's got cancer. a good round of it. liver and colon. and it came up so suddenly that we had to rally troops in about an hour. he's currently recovering at the hospital, from the removal of a softball-sized tumor. we have a long road ahead of us, but we are truly hopeful. i don't know that i've understood hope before yesterday. my dad is ready to fight, and we are ready to fight with him, and to God be all the glory regardless of the outcome.
i have to tell you that the last month of my life has been trying...i have cried more and prayed more and screamed more than ever before. i don't understand why, but i'm learning that it is not ours to understand. we just have to trust. things work together for good, even when we can't see it. sounds so cliche...but it's not.
last weekend, i got to spend unexpected time with my mom, dad, sister and brother-in-law, mostly because my sweet little maggie passed away. i needed comforting, and that seemed like the best plan. it was a fantastic weekend. we played together, ate together and fought together.
and then three days later, we get the not-so-great news that my dad's not going to be feeling that stellar for a little bit. had we waited to get together until labor day (the original plan), we might have missed out on the sweetness of all the week before. never, never think that things don't happen for a reason.
i am so thankful for the people and things that have been placed in my life...for a husband who's lived through all this before and can answer my questions. for doctors who have miraculously appeared. for surgery appointments that have just "become available." for tumors that are big, but are not so big that a body can't be fixed up. for glimmers of hope that turn into gigantic rays of healing. my life is one big miracle now, but not in the lottery sense of miracle. in the sense that i am blessed beyond measure to witness those miracles.
i know that soon, i will be able to live my life a little less "on the edge." the matters that present themself to me will not warrant immediate, drop down on your knees prayer and crying. but i pray that i will not fail to see miracles.
9 comments:
em,
I was so sad to hear about your dad. The softball size tumor was all too familiar to our family. Miracles DO happen.. my dad is living proof of that fact. Just wanted you to know that you and your family are in my prayers. Love you
dayle
Hey Emily!
Andy & I can completely relate right now. We just got word that the experimental drug that Andy's dad has been on since the beginning of June isn't working and in fact the tumors have grown. It's not easy around here either. We're struggling just like ya'll are right now. Our thoughts and prayers go out to the three of you plus your extended family. We think and talk about ya'll often and truly hope to see you in the near future when we make a trip to Nashville!
Barbara
so sorry to hear this news on here. be thinking about you and your sweet family.
appreciate your sweet comments and there is nothing tacky about it.
love you guys. We are praying for your dad.
Hello!!! I am new at this... I mean in the blog business...But i read your history and it moved me... I lived a quite similar situation with my grandma 3 years ago,but didnt ended like yours... It was very dificult on me and my family,we prayed for a miracle,and we've got a miracle,but wasn't what we were expecting... on May of 2005 God called my Noony home... And was sad but, at the same time we could see the changes that was happening in my grandfather's life...He changed a lot!!!In my 20 years of life i've never heard him say the word GOD... And sundely he was asking to us how to pray! Now he is a very diferent man! Now 3 years later he is a man of God... A 90 years old man of God... He says that when he dies he want to be with Jesus,just like Noony did. She literally died saying "Father,i am comming home" It was beaultiful.
I want to thank tou for your so blessed words... They have reached Brazil!!!
I will be praying for the recovery of your Dad!!!
Emily,
I know exactly what you are going through. My dad had a tumor removed from his colon a month ago, and will begin treatment for the cancer in a few weeks. It may seem like a rough time right now, but it will get better! My dad spent almost two weeks in the hospital before he could come home, but it doing so much better now. Ya'll just have to be patient (which is hard for strong-willed girls like us). God answers prayer and I have seen it answered in this very situation. I will be praying for all of you guys.
i love you.
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